confessions of a shy person

I know it sounds weird

finsone — Tue, 13 Dec 2011 19:12:43 +0000

It may sound weird to someone that I watched like 2 TV shows non-stop… But what can I say, it just happened and even though I kind of feel guilty for doing this, there’s no way from stopping me from doing this sort of thing again… What can I possibly do to fight this?

Supervising is not enough… I just kinda need some “strong” person to punch myself to the ground… Probably a failure in the exam can do.

chen ai luo ding (dusts down ~~ meaning things are settled)

finsone — Wed, 02 Nov 2011 00:20:25 +0000

I had my first Gardasil shot this morning then I read something about some girls have died from Gardasil shots so I became so worried all day and I felt like there’s always somewhere itching on my body… It just felt so scary… I’m just never gonna do this kind of dangerous thing any more

Anyways, I just hope I don’t get seizure or anything like that….. And R.I.P to those unfortunate girls. But my life has to move on? I’m not even sure now that I will be able to support myself through a year of fear of dying.

People’s life are so fragile. Today I just couldn’t stop thinking about what I’ll write to my parents and my friends if this is my last day of life. So many things that I haven’t explored. So many people don’t know how much I appreciate them.

So I definitely got a deeper understanding of the meaning of life and I’ll cherish it.

Some sort of discomfort at the start of term

finsone — Mon, 19 Sep 2011 23:13:52 +0000

It’s becoming a tradition now that I get discomfort at the beginning of every single term. T_T. I don’t know why this is happening. Maybe it’s due to the fact that I’ve been watching a lot of TV shows, movies and stuff and totally relaxing at the end of every single previous term so that my body and mind are not used to the whole working theme. Anyways, the important thing for now is that I really need to get myself started for the term, get myself motivated and get my mind and body moving.

Yea, so I’m attempting to start my night from here. I got some review for the first week to do and also have the preview for the following days, 1/12 passed so quickly….

A small update

finsone — Wed, 27 Jul 2011 12:38:58 +0000

I ran into a really awesome blog recently which made me realize I haven’t blogged for a long time. So I decided to blog about my recent months.

I’ve been interning at a software company and I didn’t like it. I’ve been very lazy on my job and spend all of my time off work watching movies and TV shows. I had the plan to learn German during the internship but I just dropped the course because I missed a 10% assignment in the second week. In the first few weeks, I had a little bit of excitement so I read a lot about the industry and related software and so on. After some frustration at work, I just became totally retarded.

People need stimulation. So I’ve been thinking to use the blog as a stimulus to my working harder at work.

The only thing I’m really looking forward to is the long-waited trip to Europe. It turns out my only travel buddy might not make it… Anyways, I’l still enjoy the trip.

One thing to add to my long to-do list at free time is to learn to type faster and hopefully more quietly.

night

finsone — Sat, 02 Apr 2011 04:25:46 +0000

Well, it’s kinda more struggling helping than doing. Well, I kinda don’t know what I’m talking about….

Anyways, the point I’m trying to make is that it seems like backtracking and spacing is so difficult for both of us so i always find it hard to continue.

you’re never that important

finsone — Tue, 15 Feb 2011 23:14:29 +0000

I just realized this… It just doesn’t mean anything for someone to be appearing by your side. When something really serious happens, they’ll just run away, like a tiger, leaving you alone, crying.

silent state of mind

finsone — Tue, 15 Feb 2011 20:34:22 +0000

So I was getting a coffee and saw him sitting at a table staring at a paper. It was shocking in that he can concentrate when the environment was so noisy.

I guess that’s called a silent state of mind.

Fearlessly go.

Chrome sync extensions data

finsone — Sat, 12 Feb 2011 19:35:37 +0000

I’ve always loved Chrome’s syncing features but it would be extremely better if extensions data can also be synced just as bookmarks do. By that, I mean, for example, the options/configuration settings for extensions.

relieved

finsone — Sun, 06 Feb 2011 04:37:06 +0000

I always thought that friendships are easy to establish and I just found out the not easy way that it’s not the case. Even after you’ve known someone for pretty long and you thought that you’ve known him enough. Some surprising things will happen, which you blow the trust in between away.

stressful

finsone — Thu, 20 Jan 2011 23:02:26 +0000

I don’t know how to describe this but life sucks when you’re surrounded by people around you. All I wanna say is that people really can be so smart that they don’t need to a minute to think about questions and therefore they can survive like everything while I had to work my ass off and still get nothing. I really hate this kind of life.

Well, something I wanna say is that even though life sucks, there’s always ways to improve it. For example, I can go home and do some skating videos so that I can relieve all my pains and do whatever I want to do. Isn’t it great?!! lol….

Well, even though life sucks, life goes on……

Uhm…..

All I wanna do is be myself and lead a smart life, which seems to be ……

It really sucks….